Think.

When people say they want children of their own, more times than not they think about babies, toddlers, cute little things and not teenagers, youth, marriage of their children. For myself, i often used to want children and i did not realised that i want literally children which means from in the womb till only maybe 12 years old? As i often stopped thinking about youth. But now i fear to say that line, "i want children". Because i fear the underlying meaning the line carry. 

What do people really meant? Were they ready for adulthood of the used to be baby? Are there ready for rebelious teenagers? Potty training? Milk cost, college cost and etc. 

Motherhood is scary. The commitment it comes with is scary. Are you willing to go through it all? The thought of looking at your son not marrying the daughter in law of your dreams? Does it kill you? Will it kill you?

The thought of your child growing and leaving you behind to embark on his own life journey. Will it haunt you if he took the longer path? 

Think. Think. Think. I repeat, think.